Reality check and reflection time.... time to give up those little kid dreams that are holding me back from being a productive adult. Here comes self reflection and major decisions to making. I need a job/career I can enjoy and that can both support a family and eventually help me put money into my art. UGH!
On top of that I got a HUGE family reality check, well my husband and I both, but I got a reality check in motherhood, in wifehood, with my mother, step-father, and even some extended family but mainly I got reality check on marriage. Marriage is hard. Parenthood is hard. Finding common ground with two independent-competitive people, who come from two completely different back rounds can be a struggle! Here I am over my head in struggle and reality checks. First thing I got rid of was social media! Then, I got rid of anything that would distract me from what I needed to deal with..... I gave up everything expect for my family and close friends. It was time to spend time with those true friends and time to figure out how to be married. Your close friends are there to be real with you and your husband is there to work it out with you.
Relationships: What no one wants to tell you is that relationships have up and downs, having kids can be hard, and life can be overwhelming. What I have found is no one wants to be real about marriage unless your the first to bring it up and even then it takes a real honest person to be real with you. The thing I have found is that it doesn't matter how perfect a person is for you, there is a still a period where it gets tough. Anyone who says they never had a rough time in there marriage is a lair or hasn't been married long enough.
The nice thing about being hair stylist is that I get to talk to so may different people and people tell me things because I tell no one. I'm a cheap counselor and this cheap counselor questioned everyone on marriage. What I found in my research is that most married couples have the toughest times in the beginning and in the early years with their children. I even had a family lawyer tell me the most common divorce is in couples with a child under one! This I never knew and would have never found out unless I asked.
Don't get me wrong, family is a BLESSING. I'm just talking about something I am going through.....
I started to noticed a change in my relationship with my husband. Things got weird, fights became marathons, and words HURT! Change is hard and readjusting causes you to have to look at yourself. It takes courage to take the blame off someone else and being real with yourself. When your in a marriage and you are IN LOVE having a rough patch is devastating and completely heart-breaking. If you are IN LOVE you just can't give up and I am IN LOVE! So I put my big girl panties on and I went to battle for my love. I would love to sit here and write something cool on the lessons of love and about marriage (you know something you read in the huffingtonpost) but I'm not ready. At the end of the day love is the most important thing. So, if your reading this and going through something (anything) just find that strength and keep going. When you don't give up the reward will eventually find you.
Now I am in the middle of self reflection and trying to figure out my adult dreams, maybe a little late, but better late then never. I will sit back down with my paint brush and soon I will have more paintings to post and more pictures to show off but for now I am in reflection, and I'm working on finding my way.
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Peace and Love |