This weekend I will be celebrating my Birthday and my first Mother's Day..... I'm extremely excited for my first Mother's Day. My daughter gives so much meaning to my life and I can't wait to eat some kind of Sunday brunch in celebration.
To be real, the last two weeks I've spent most of my time with my daughter, and I have taken the time I normally spend on doing things like painting and taking pictures, on my relationship. My husband is a very, very busy man. He spends most of his time addicted to work, and little time he has left is spent with us or sleeping. Since it's our first year of marriage and we have an infant I've been trying to figure out (as I am sure my husband is too) how to make everything we both want functional. It isn't easy! My frustrations, patience, words, time, thoughts, and love have all been spent in the last two weeks only on my family. So far, we have agreed and achieved 5 hours of family time a week. Everything else is still a work in progress. We also took some time last weekend for each other and we had a really good date, thanks babe! To those woman trying to figure out a family, I'm there, I'm in the beginning of it all! Everyday there is something to learn. Some weeks are super hard and some days are long but it's all wonderful. In some odd way it best thing ever. At the end of the day family is the most important to me. It has to be! I had a single mom growing up and a biological father who showed up once every few years just to be asshole and walk out again. My secret dream in life was to have a family. I hoped I could find a man who was together and goodhearted enough to love, be loved, and to want to be a family. I found JT. Thank God because I wasn't so sure if I'd ever get here but I'm here. I have no idea how to do this family thing especially in a two parent household, so I am working. I am working on myself, my marriage, being a good mom, and maintaining who I am and growing into who I want to be. In process of it all, I can't give up on this professional dream either.
Today is beautiful and today I restart the process into my art venture and keep working toward those goals I have set in my head.
Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there!
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